Finally Found

Facing the fear of being here

You’re the sparkly toy
I begged my parents for
but instead
They withheld my happiness along with theirs

Now I finally get to have you
Late is better than never
Running my hands over your skin
Familiar, new, young, old

Bringing me back to a memory
Or maybe a dream
Salty air encapsulated in your sweat
I taste the past, future
Struggling to stay present

“Relax and be happy,” you say
And I finally can, listen
Let you take the lead
I’ll be your toy for once
Or maybe, once again