Talking to Myself From Carlo Zeno
So Carlo Zeno Got This From Marilyn Flower, And Now I’m Doing It And This Is Why I Love #WritingCommunity Writer Challenges
As you all know I LOVE talking about myself as long as I’m doing it with words on a screen instead of my voice. For a lot of reasons, so today I did a whole bunch of questions on my main website Loud Mouth Brown Girl and then I came over to lovely medium, to see this prompt by Carlo Zeno who got it from Marilyn Flower and I thought I’d give it a try.
So here are the questions:
- What do I need to know today?
- Who (the hell) am I?
- What’s my single-minded purpose?
And the Answers:
1. What do I need to know today
I suppose the only thing that I need to know today is that I in particular am going to be safe. This is a question I’ve been asking myself a lot, with the more and more that I speak out about gang violence, the less I feel like the strong brave person that Loud Mouth Brown Girl is supposed to be.
It’s really hard to talk about the kinds of things that domestic violence survivors face, and then also face judgement at the hands of people who either know what happened and did nothing on purpose or those who don’t know what to do because they’ve never experienced anything as you have before. So today I just need to know I’m safe, and that my family and Ohana members are safe as well.
2. Who The Hell am I?
That….is a difficult question. I am The Loud Mouth Brown Girl, a mixed-race, Creole, English, Irish, Jamaican, Gypsy, and Scottish woman from Canada British Columbia.
I am a weird, majickal creature from another planet who believes that humans have a long way to go before we can even begin to understand what “God,” means to every single person that we know, let alone to ourselves.
I am a person who has hope things will get better, but not I don’t fully trust they will. Lots of people want me to change WHO I am, without understanding that to answer this question I’d have to have an answer that makes sense, and right now I just don’t.
3. What’s my single-minded purpose?
I want to reclaim all the parts of myself that abusers, hangers-on, and people who thought they could tear me apart stole from me. Loud Mouth Brown Girl is a part of that, being my true self and not being afraid to say the things that matter to me is another.
I am completely convinced that I am the smartest person on this planet, I just haven’t quite figured out how to prove it yet, but I’m pretty sure that before I die, forever from now, I will have figured out at least one thing that no one else has before, and that’s pretty much my purpose.
To spend the rest of my life being SO right ALL the time, that when I die they literally put “Their name was I told You so, and They were right.”
Have a great day,
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall