Call it impeccable timing, bad luck, the law of attraction, etc. You can call it whatever you want, but when your life is heading in a direction that is not aligned with where you think it should be or what your purpose in life is, the universe will make changes in your life; sometimes subtle, sometimes big, but it will begin to rearrange your life in such a way to where there will be no mistake of the lessons needing to be learned.
Two and a half years ago, when I decided to leave Houston, Texas for Austin, Texas, my home of twelve or so years, it was a decision of pure and utter necessity. Because of the drug addiction to methamphetamine that had been slowly getting worse over the years, I was unemployable, close to being homeless and running out of options. The kindness and generosity of family and friends that had once protected me from the harsh consequences of drug addiction were running out quickly and I needed some solutions and to take massive action quickly before time ran out on me. It was upon receiving a gift of $3,000 from my mother and stepfather that was intended to purchase a vehicle that I was able to take the appropriate steps needed to get out of that dire situation and into a new environment with some new opportunities in making something better of myself.
Looking back at my time spent in Austin, I can see how much it needed to happen in order for me to continue along my life’s path and grow and evolve. I ended up falling in love with a guy, and although at times our relationship was very toxic and dysfunctional at times, it was a catalyst of much personal expansion and growth. I ended up landing some work in the hotel industry and was spent the majority of my time in the Texas Capital gainfully employed with minimal downtime in between positions and employers. I was faced with the opportunity of acknowledging and gaining some insight into my history of substance abuse, some reasons why I chose to self medicate for those periods of time and ways in which I can manage it a little better. Through all of these life lessons learned, I had the love and support of my boyfriend, Mike Knies, which truly made the difference in my success overall while living here in Austin and am now having to face and deal with one of the hardest challenges in leaving Austin.
But just as dire my situation was when I decided to move to Austin, my current life situation cries for change. After being fired from the hotel I worked at for over a year and subsequently the two delivery driver positions with Amazon, I truly believe that these are signs from the universe telling me that something isn’t working right now in my life, and my lease coming to an end at the same time as all these other incidents is no coincidence but life pushing me into the only logical decision i know to do and make a temporary move to San Antonio to regroup and sort through the things that need my attention the most. Reconnect with the family I have there and refocus on a sober life there, getting back on track.
There is no amount of growth and change that does not come with pain and discomfort and right now, the universe is paving the way for some major changes in my life and I am grateful and eager anticipating what the world has in store for me in this next chapter of my life. Wish me luck!