You are amazing. No, don’t rush past this… stop. Breathe. Take a deep breath. You. Are. Amazing.
No, I don’t think you fully heard me. Stop. Breathe and take the fact in for 15 seconds.
Count it out. 15 seconds.
Just as you are.
Flaws. Tears. Exhaustion. Doubts. Are all part of what makes you amazing.
Love. Achievement. Go-Getterness. Sadness. Fight. Your personality traits are all parts of what make you amazing.
Yes, I have some other things for you to do, but right now I want you to do today.
You have got some more things to figure out. This might be a little painful. In a few years, this period right now. Like today. This very day will be a day and period of your life that you look back so fondly on.
You are being prepared. For what? I can’t tell you yet. Have I ever let you down? I have been crafting you since before you were born. All the things you thought were flaws. All the times you doubt yourself and your value, I have been guiding you. To right now. To today. This random (although not so random) day.
If you wouldn’t have gone through all of the things you have gone through, there is no way you could know the things you know now and be able to love the life I have given you.
There would be no way you would be able to do the things I need you to do for me in the future. Don’t quit yet. Keep going. Keep fighting. I will guide your words and your steps. Stay humble. Stay in the game. Keep pushing your kids. Keep pushing your friends. Keep pushing your spouse.
I know you don’t feel like what you are doing is important. I know you feel stuck, but I cannot express how important you are to what I am doing.
I want you to think of yourself as one of my most precious seeds. What do I mean? A seed doesn’t know that one day it will become a huge tree that a home can be built around. That kids will play on. A tree that is the foundation for a lot of lives. It doesn’t know. It just knows to be a seed. Then dirt is thrown on it. It is trampled on. Run over. Forgotten about. Rained on. Left out in the sun to burn. But then, slowly but surely, something happens inside of this seed. Something is growing. This thing inside starts pushing on the shell, it has to get out. It’s painful breaking through a shell.
Then it happens, a small breakthrough of the tiny shell. Then it continues to feel buried in the dirt. But something more is happening inside. Work is being done. This little green sprout starts to break through. Starts to fight through the dirt, just trying to make it to the sunlight, fighting, reaching as hard as it can for the sunlight. For air. And it makes it. Another small breakthrough to the surface.
Then it grows and grows over years of storms. Years of harsh summers. And we look up 40 years later and there is a huge tree standing there. Strong. A massive foundation of roots. Shade for others. The seed never even knew it was anything other than a seed. Seeds don’t have feelings, I know you do. Which makes it harder for people to go through this process. You know there is something more. You know we have a huge tree inside of us, but you don’t know how it all works.
You are one of my most precious seeds. You. Just the way you are. Are one of my most. precious. seeds. I love you. And created you just the way you are to go through your exact family, to meet those exact people and go through that exact stuff, to meet that exact person. To create a life together. But you are not just a wife, you’re not just a husband. Your not just those kids mom or dad. You are one of my most precious creations and I do have some more things for you to do, but right now I want you to just be. You have been doing so great with this over the last year. I am so proud of you. I am so proud of you. You are working so hard. And it’s not to achieve or prove anything to anyone. You are doing so good. And one day you will literally be able to just collapse in my arms. And I will just hold you, as long as you want. And you will see and feel all the things that are so hard to see and feel right now.
I love you so much and I just wanted to write all this down and give it to you.
Be still and know that I am God.
Be still and know that I am.
Be still and know.
Just be. For now.