Scared of burning out.
I’d like to do more things that lead to tangible change in the world.
I have no end of ideas about how to make the world a better place but I worry that I sit on the edge of doing them rather than plunging in.
I think my nervousness is reasonable as I have, in the past, had experiences of burning out.
That is not a pretty thing.
One day, when I was doing a lot of stuff that really didn’t have a lot of balance in it, I just came into the office and sat down and said to my closest friend… “I can’t do it. I can’t go and run that session. We are going to have to cancel.”
It was a big session, very important, but I just couldn’t push any harder. I was done. I suppose it was a mini break down. Luckily I had awesome people around me and we just cancelled and I went home to bed and started to sort things out. I don’t know if that was the critical moment of change but things certainly have changed.
I am very happy with my life now. I like that I don’t really feel like I have to ‘work hard’ at anything. That the things I do are largely driven by my curiosity and desire to contribute to the world.
I suspect I don’t see the positive impact I am having with the things I am currently doing.
I just see all the things I could do.
Maybe I need a bit more of the ‘glass half full’ in my life.
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