my body (still)

if I feel
that this (my) body
betrayed me

if I feel
that this
is (my) body still
per haps[sic]
it is just (us)
I’m still
(wading in it)
for you
my rapist(s)
to give it
it back me

I don’t imagine
no, really,
know means know!

I can’t imagine
what use it serves
you (my body
at this late
date (age)

give it back
me [sic]