Words sound better on paper.

I had forgotten what my Ted Talk (Google Docs outline linked) had been about. It had been such a long time ago and I’d had so many things going on in my life at the moment that I’m guessing it had just been lost in the mess.

Looking back onto the presentations I can understand what I was trying to talk about, and how I got lost in the maze that my mind was at that moment: trying to fit everything into one 10 minute presentation that crumbled and fell through my fingers when it came down to it.

Anyhow, my sole purpose was to talk to people about my writing. I begun by apologizing in advance for my awkwardness, and letting them know how my words come out better on paper, and talked about the doubt that I’d always felt, especially now, on my writing.

I talked about the impact that my eighth grade english teacher had on me, especially at such a young age, getting me engaged in literature and teaching me literary devices that I could apply to my reading, as well as letting me write freely and being there for me and never discouraging anything I did. He was the first person that made me doubt: doubt whether writing could be a possibility for me or not.

Moving on I talked about this guy I had met around that time, the first person I had ever met that knew that the career “creative writing” was even a thing. I talked to him about it, he was quite the personage. As discouraging as it had been that nobody knew anything about what I wanted to be was, this one person in some sort of odd way let me know that I wasn’t alone in this. I also talked about my mom, and how discouraging she had been throughout this process—with her own logical reasons—and I had turned to writing as an escape.

Although my talk should’ve gone as smoothly and directly as this did but in simpler words it was a mess, especially when involving horoscopes, and how my mom is a scorpio. It made me deviate from the subject completely and forget almost fully what the talk was actually about. Although I did talk about my interests and what I wanted, not having somewhat a boundary to express myself within made me able to blabber off, but in conclusion I was able to talk about how doubt was something incredible, something you can see in the outline of my talk.