perversity

have you ever thought
of the perversity of the whole thing?
no?
neither did i.
yes?
well, that’s fine
you can think things
you’re free
you can cross borders, you know
what?
you don't want to cross borders?
why won’t you?
you just don’t?
well that’s weird
did you just say
you prefer the misery of celibacy
to risk?
that’s odd
tender
and with a pretense of
genuine affection
yet, is it honest?
it’s easier to deny
than yield
you say
perhaps you stop
even wanting me
you say
because it’s easier
not to want