Promise

Matthew Spira
Oct 12, 2019 · 1 min read
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Sometimes
the greatest talent
is just putting one foot
in front of the other.
How do you tell
a child
her father
gave up
eating a bullet.
Or his mother
a bottle of pills
closed her eyes?

I swam laps
in oceans of vodka
backflips into cheap wine
I despaired in my world
where everything crumbled
nothing made sense and
I almost became the Monster.
Almost.

I stepped into the Abyss
but crawled back.
Others reading
will assume stereotypes
and that’s all right
I hope you know
in time
what that meant.
You already know
what
but not why.

I didn’t find God
He didn’t find me
I found myself
naked
stripped
of everything I was
everything I hoped to be
flayed
except
for one thing.

This is my promise
I may never win
Father of the Year
but
this is my promise
to my children
they may never understand
at least my part
or maybe in full
but they will have
a story
their story
not
a cautionary tale.

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— Matthew S. Spira © 2019

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