Individuality Matters

Being an individual in this society can mean so much yet be different to each person

When it comes to everything that comes with being part of society, it is a lot for one person to grow up to be someone who they are not only confident and comfortable being but one who is proud of who and what they are as a person and citizen of our society.

But living in our society comes with many of its own challenges. For example: the numerous attempts, hours, upon months and years spent on meeting society’s expectations for those tend to fixate and be so motivated yet stubborn to work hard enough to be “worthy” enough. And meet society’s expectations. To earn that approval, that acceptance of society! We all think in that moment we would feel peace and happiness.

But it rather gives you the outcome of pain, suffering, and the complete opposite of peace. You feel so ashamed and disgusted with yourself for letting yourself get this far and lose so much of who you are just to get that approval that you wanted and dreamt that it would give you lasting peace.

“Where there is no imagination, there is no horror.” ~ Arthur Conan Doyle

You begin to wonder and question everything you ever did since the beginning this whole thing. You question whether your life is worth living after making a massive mess of it all on your own. You feel so alone like what you are feeling, no one else feels the same. Makes you wonder why am I still living? I should just end it here, now while I still can before I make worse fool of myself.

A day passes and then another day passes. And you begin to wonder why you are still here, alive. Why? What is it that is keeping me alive? You may ask. Well I’ve figured that out: I even wondered why all those times I felt like this and felt so suicidal and wanted to take my own life; why I didn’t act on those suicidal thoughts. And here’s what I gathered:

Either the first or second time I watched the episode in season 1 of The Arrangement tv series I was able to connect the dots together.

You don’t do it because deep down inside you know there’s something worth sticking around for (hope). Because if you really wanted to die, you would’ve done it three years ago.

It’s hope that keeps people, no warriors like us from ending our… sentence;. Like the semicolon tattoo that has spread across the world where many have gotten as a tattoo symbolizing a true real meaning to them:

A semicolon tattoo is a tattoo of the semicolon punctuation mark (;) used as a message of affirmation and solidarity against suicide, depression, addiction, and other mental health issues.

And

The non-profit encourages people to draw (or tattoo) semicolons on their bodies as a way to represent and support those dealing with mental illness or loss of someone from suicide. ~ Jul 9, 2015

Also:

Project Semicolon defines itself as “dedicated to presenting hope and love for those who are struggling with mental illness, suicide, addiction and self-injury”, and “exists to encourage, love and inspire”.