There’s Always a Brighter Tomorrow On It’s Way
When did you decide you wanted to run for president ?
It was over a year ago, I was in a dark place emotionally and wanted to end it all. The one thing that kept me alive was the thought that if I were to die I wouldn’t leave a legacy behind. Sure a handful of people would’ve been upset but weeks later I would have faded into the past. I decided then and there I was going to use my life to send a message.
What message did you want to send ?
I wanted people to rethink mental illness; I wanted people to know that you could be successful, be following your dreams, and have friends and also be depressed. People always assumed that because I was super involved and smiled all the time I must’ve been happy. But in truth it was the opposite; I got involved to try and add value to my life, I kept smiling because it kept everyone from worrying. I wanted to make a name for myself and then die, that way people couldn’t ignore the elephant in the room.
A while back, a friend of mine died in a similar manner, and surely enough of the people that knew him were affected, but after some time people moved on. The bottom line is that I thought that if I made a big enough name for myself, everyone would have to stop and think about mental health if I were to die. I don’t believe that anymore though, everything has changed since then. I know for a fact now that my life is more valuable than some grand gesture, and I know that I could do far more good during the long years I intend to live.
You mentioned that something changed, what was that ?
I don’t know if I’ll ever fully understand it. As the months passed by and I got closer to the date, things started to contradict themselves. People started to care more about mental health, council was pushing for more counseling, MATES was introduced, and I was starting to see a culture change on the topic. I sat down with myself and really examined everything I once thought to be true and found myself at a crossroads. found that I could truly do more good by living than any memory of me could ever do. It’s almost as if the world rose up to the occasion when I had given up on it.
What would you say to someone who who’s in the same boat as you were ?
I cannot really say anything in fear of sounding cliche, but I can say that things do get better. I was on the edge ready to let everything go and I am so glad that I didn’t. Life truly seemed to be hopeless, but when I needed it the most people were there for me. Just hang on, wait out the storm because I promise you there is a brighter tomorrow that’s on its way.