It All Started When I Pierced My Own Ears

A hasty act of defiance turned into a symbol of freedom I can’t quit

Nikki Kay
Messy Mind

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Photo by Alexander Krivitskiy on Unsplash

I wasn’t much prone to rebellion as a kid, though I had plenty of reasons to rebel. Mostly, I did the things I was supposed to do. I went to school and brought home good grades. I went to work and brought home decent money. I paid my speeding tickets and my pager bill, and I didn’t break curfew.

My parents kept me on a very short leash; it was their way of keeping me safe, I guess. If I didn’t go anywhere, didn’t see anybody, didn’t do anything – then surely I would keep out of trouble.

It’s only fitting that when I did rebel, I chose carefully those acts of defiance I could perform right under my parents’ roof — ones they wouldn’t discover until the deed had been done, if they discovered them at all.

I was always fascinated by piercings

When I was little, it seemed that all the coolest girls had earrings trailing up their earlobes. When I got a little older, cartilage piercings came into fashion, and shortly thereafter, other body piercings became all the rage. I had a season ticket to all the body modification trends.

Throughout my life, everyone I looked up to had something sticking out of her body — a nose…

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Nikki Kay
Messy Mind

Words everywhere. Fiction, poetry, personal essays about parenting, mental health, and the intersection of the two. messymind.substack.com