I Grew, Then I Blew
How I wrecked my Medium progress & my quest to return
I showed up here early last year & I was soon caught up in the excitement of Medium. I loved it & met some wonderful people.
I felt a bubble of excitement every single time I got a clap or a comment — I was loving it!
But I had some health stuff & I couldn’t function for months. I attempted ‘comebacks’ but was soon put in my place with my energy owning every choice I made once again. Life with chronic illness isn’t fun sometimes — especially when you lose control of the basics.
I took a massive step back & here I am, 6 maybe 7 months later feeling highly self-conscious about writing again.
I put off writing for months as I felt I might be judged & I also felt a bit silly.
But here I am, I am determined to dust myself off for good now.
I am back in control of my body & my energy (Whoop!) and back to pursuing my love of writing, here on Medium.
I’ve written a few small pieces over the past couple of weeks; just to dip my toe back in & lessen some of the overwhelm I was feeling about coming back.
Isn’t it amazing how quickly something I loved doing felt too scary to think about doing!
Key Message: Showing up can feel massively uncomfortable, but if you stay feeling safe, what will change?
Have you had to step back from the things you love? How did you find going back to it?
I’m excited to connect with you all again,
Lynsey x
