My Dream To Pursue Higher Education Ruined My Jobs

I was subconsciously sabotaging my chances

Chau Trieu
Midform

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One of my favorite Modern Family episodes is called “Phil On Wire”.

In this episode, one of the main characters, Phil Dunphy tries to walk on a tightrope and he practices walking on a wire six inches from the ground. Yet, he keeps falling so he decides to quit. His son, Luke told him:

“Maybe you keep falling because part of you knows that you can fall.”

My career is the tightrope and my dream for higher education is the ground.

During the last 3 years of working, I kept shying away from opportunities and hesitating to speak up because I knew the option to study higher was there to catch me if I fell. And I did fall, intentionally.

How dreaming about a higher education ruined my career

Ever since I was still doing my Bachelor’s, I dreamed of the day I received my Master’s degree.

To me, that’s a huge life achievement. That degree seemingly would be the reason for my future success, define my status, and make everything in my life better.

So I deemed the time between graduating as an undergrad to being accepted into a postgrad program ‘temporary’.

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Chau Trieu
Midform
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