The Simple Reason Why You Won’t Change Your Life
It’s Because it Feels Like Dying
When I sat down for my first transcendental meditation, I had no idea what to expect. All I wanted was a break from the noise inside my mind that completely derailed my senior year of college.
My mind wasn’t just loud — it was roaring. It was like the New York Stock Exchange, but instead of adults, it was filled with a bunch of ADHD 6-year-olds with anger issues.
I was desperate for anything to take away the pain of living with such a brain. I was desperate for change.
I guess that’s why I allowed myself to change so suddenly and drastically during this particular meditation.
Change Is Scary…but It Can Also Be Healing
When I closed my eyes and started to focus on my breath, I was confronted with a giant wall of fear. I had felt this fear in previous meditations, but I had always backed away from it. Not this time, though. I went straight for it.
To say that I was scared is an understatement. I was shitting my pants. I felt like I was dying, like the world was turning upside-down. My body’s core survival mechanism went into overdrive — I was sweating, I felt dizzy, and my heart was racing.
