What Happens When You Believe You’re Not Good Enough?

And how I think I’ve found a way forward.

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I’m scared of many things — failure, heights, pain — and it turns out, not being good enough.

I’ve discovered that when we peel back the layers the define our complicated lives, it’s one thing that we fear. Yep, one reason alone sits behind all the worries of suffering, failure, and conflict. What holds us back or pushes us forward is defined by one thought and one thought alone — we’re not good enough.

“Everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear.” George Addair

I’m writing this on the back of a search. A search to find out why I’ve failed, and to find out why I’ve done some of the stupid things I’ve done. But also, I want to get on with my life, I don’t want to be in this position any longer. When I ponder the quote from George Addair, I know it’s true. Everything I desire is on the other side of fear — but I can’t get past my fear.

I know I’m to blame. It’s my stupid fault I’ve done the things I’ve done. The problem for me is this mindset is holding me back. I’m stuck in the past, unable to get past my guilt and the fear of doing it again. There are more nights in the week than there aren’t when I dream about my…