What It Feels Like to Fight Your Own Brain

The toughest battle you’ll ever fight in your life is the battle within yourself.

Little by little it takes over, and you don’t even realize it.

You try to assess the situation, using what’s left of your moral reasoning. But soon, your mind becomes hijacked…by your emotions, by a whirlpool of nasty, excruciating thoughts — thoughts you didn’t even believe could be yours. You start to panic, afraid of what you’re starting to become, afraid that this could be permanent, but as you may remember, this only makes things worst.

And now, it’s too late. Everything’s spilling out, like a pot that’s been boiling with a lid, unsupervised, and you can’t seem to turn off the heat.

Fortunately, I’ve had the opportunity to experience these kinds of moments — to see how dark the mind can be when threatened, and to ask myself (before things escalate): Why? Why am I feeling this way?

It’s not easy when your mind is super sensitive and emotionally unstable, but I knew I had to question it — because how else could I understand my feelings, let alone the problem, if I’m always thinking about the worst?

That’s why, in this scenario, I took the time to reflect upon myself and to understand why I felt so upset when…