Hey Mom,
If only I had known…
Hey Mom,
It’s been a while,
979 days to be exact.
Don’t worry, we all still have our limbs attached.
And yes, we still stop by to check in on Dad.
I like to believe you’re watching over us,
So you’d already know all that.
You’ve been on my mind quite a bit lately.
I’ve had this deep seeded need,
Planted in my gut,
Sprouting a familiar yearning,
For the ability to see you,
To hear your voice say my name,
To wrap my arms around you tightly,
And tell you I love you again.
I want so badly to tell you
How much I now understand!
All the things you tried to teach me
In everything you said.
So much time wasted,
Being angry and disappointed.
When I could have used that time
To listen and love you instead.
I should have responded to your text the night before you passed.
But I was worried that you’d get worried thinking I was sad.
Even though I know to
Expected the unexpected,
I thought I’d have
One more tomorrow,
To say
I love you, again.
