I Never Wanted To Be The Bread Winner
Feeling the weight of being the “provider” was never something I had signed up for
Let me first preface this article by saying that in no way, shape, or form, am I being discouraging or unsupportive of women who are the bread winner in their household.
*Lets out a deep breath*
Okay, now I can begin.
When I lost my job over the summer, it wasn’t necessarily all that scary at first. To be honest, I was actually very excited at the idea of not working for a little while. I saw it as an opportunity to take a mini sabbatical. After all, I had been with my previous company for over six years — which, in the tech industry seems more like twenty — so, I was already feeling the pains of burnout in the position that I was in. What hadn’t initially crossed my mind, however, were the financial ramifications that would eventually rear its ugly head.
At this juncture in my life, the financial stakes were much, much higher. I now have a shiny, new (and very expensive) mortgage and a family to provide for, with a second child on the way. It wasn’t just me depending on my paychecks anymore. However, the panic didn’t really settle in until fairly recently when my prospects of finding a new job were not as impressive as I thought they would…
