Yelling is My Love Language
Identifying Our Love Language
Five years into my marriage, I was gifted the book The Five Love Languages: the Secret to Love that Lasts by Gary Chapman. It went unread for the next five years. Our twenties wasn’t a time for me and my husband to focus on how best to connect with each other. We were both beginning our careers, me as a corporate litigation attorney; him as a financial consultant. We lived in Manhattan in an apartment in Tribeca with our two dogs. We spent the days working and the weekends at fancy restaurants and night clubs.
Trying to climb professional ladders and under the constant demand of being a young lawyer left little time to learn the ins and outs of how to effectively nurture and foster communication with my soulmate.
I knew he spoke English and conversational Spanish. That was all I needed to know. The rest would come later.
Our relationship flourished. Or at least appeared to flourish. We remained married. Ten years in, we moved to Tampa, Florida, taking the book with us where it would remain unread for another fourteen years. I became a stay-at-home mom, gave birth to three children in five years, mourned the loss of our dogs, moved again, had a son diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, lost my father, dealt with my husband losing his job.
With that, our relationship rose and fell, like a tide. We weathered it all in stride doing like everyone else in the thick of adulting and responsibility, by pushing through each day to get to the next. Effectively communicating remained on the back burner.
Who needs to learn how to talk to one another to actually talk to one another?
When the children were little, our relationship became stagnant, like the diaper pail he forgot to empty unless I told him to do so, but remained functional. We never grew apart. We never came to dislike each other. We never seemed unhappy in our relationship. As the children grew older, we cemented our bond through reading and writing together. I would consider us a happily married couple. We watch movies together every night, and laugh at each other’s jokes even when they are not funny.