I’d Rather Be Whole Than Good
Carl Jung is known for having said, “I’d rather be whole, than good.”
For a while now, this quote has been stuck in the back of my mind, working it’s way around, and testing out the waters of my perceptions. When I was a child, I used to think the most important thing in the world was to be good. To be what I believed everyone else wanted — what would make them happy. As I grew up, that believe — or rather, that habit — stuck with me. In some weird way, it worked for me. Allowing me to focus on helping others and being to them what I didn’t think I could be for myself.
It wasn’t until my 30’s when I realized I couldn’t move forward in peace when a part of me felt like it was missing. I’d been lying to myself that things were okay. I was in an unhappy marriage — not an earth-shatteringly unhappy one, but the kind that slowly sucked the life from you one day at a time. When I was 33, I decided enough was enough. I stepped away from all that I was, the woman I had become to embrace someone new in me.
Now, 4 years later, I look back on my life in its entirety and I can barely remember what that feeling was like. Sure, I still struggle with myself — my inner journey; my outer purpose. But I don’t suffer in my new marriage; not like that.
However, the one thing my previous marriage and subsequent fallout from the divorce taught me is this: staying true to yourself is more important than making everyone else happy.
I believe that’s the essence of what Carl Jung was trying to say. Everyone’s perception of what “good” is very subjective. Good can flitter between cultures, across races, and dance along the fence of religious lines. When you stay true to you, to your inner voice and soul — that is where true happiness and contentment lie.
We’re all trying to reach this place of wholeness. From every entrepreneurial inspiration site, to the dystopian books we read, to the movies we watch; they’re all saying it. Do what you love, do what makes you you, embrace who you are.
So why then do we live in a world where differences are fodder for bullying, where we only appreciate the genius after he/she’s gone? Why do we care what someone else does in their consensual bedrooms or the reason they’re in the women’s bathroom and not the men’s? It’s all diversionary tactics because we’ve denied ourselves the ability to be whole.
I truly believe the people who fight most adamantly to oppose something (say gay marriage, interracial marriage, transgenders using the bathroom) are hiding a part of themselves. Perhaps it’s even a part of themselves they don’t like and wish wasn’t there.
The brilliance in acceptance is the more we give, the more we ourselves have. Additionally, it allows us to embrace being whole while letting go of the madness within.
Eckhart Tolle has said, “To complain is always nonacceptance of what is. It invariably carries an unconscious negative charge. When you complain, you make yourself into a victim. When you speak out, you are in your power. So change the situation by taking action or by speaking out if necessary or possible; leave the situation or accept it. All else is madness.”
My husband always says, “I never said I was good,” when his judgment and morality don’t mix with society’s current norms. At first, I have to admit, I wasn’t sure what to think or where to put this sentiment. (I was still in my recent post-divorce brain.) Now, the longer I’ve been with him, the more I understand and see why. Others will do to you whatever they can — whatever they can get away with. Just look at the debacle that is our democratic system right now. He trusts his own moral compass to guide him with every step he takes.
That, my friends, is being whole.
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Carissa Andrews is a Multipassionate MN Entrepreneur, Speculative Fiction and Nonfiction Author, Freelance Writer, Graphic Designer and Artist, Unapologetic Progressive, Lightworker, Truthsayer, and Occasional Badass. Her YA speculative fiction/fantasy/dystopian series, the Pendomus Chronicles, is available now through Amazon. Her latest nonfiction work, Author Impostor: Getting Over Impostor Syndrome So You Can Reclaim Your Power and Start Writing is also available now!
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