Absolution

There was a moment yesterday that made me become self-aware all over again.

For the longest time, I’ve been fighting the part of me that wants something out of everything, the part that can cause any possible expectation and disappointment, aggression and jealousy. I’ve been afraid of my own probable brutal/ruthless/doing-anything-to-get-what-I-want tendency.

I’ve been me, nasty sometimes, but lukewarm at wanting anything and not bothered with putting up any fight.

Is it a sign? Is it the time to change?

It’s crazy to think that while I’m being the most peaceful in the post peaceful place in the world, this is the whirlwind behind.

Oh well…