Why I quit my job as a lawyer
I have had a great career for the last 10 years and I can say I enjoyed my job for the most part; it was challenging and well paid. However, there was something missing, but I didn’t know what that something was. What was it that wasn’t fulfilling me, I couldn’t pin it down… I had the urge to do something else, something that wasn’t in the legal field. But I had no idea what it could be and what caused me to change my mind about law.
I knew I wanted to work for myself, I also knew I wanted to do something more creative and fun, compared to law. That is about how far I got, no more thoughts or ideas what it could be I didn’t have. It was time to question myself to find out all the unanswered questions. I truly feel these are the questions that helped me understand why I wanted to quit my job and what else would I want to do. This is how the questioning went.
I started off general. What are the topics I am genuinely interested in. Although law is still a topic I am interested in, it doesn’t excite me, it is just a job to me. There was no sincerity about it, no enthusiasm. I would have to feel this way for the next 30 years if I stayed in that field, and that scared the shit out of me. I don’t want to feel this way, no way! Initially, when I went to study law, it was definitely a big interest of mine, but I am not sure whether it was a genuine interest, or it was perhaps just a hot topic to study at the time. Besides law I enjoy discussing and deliberating on different subjects, such as personal development and finances, motivation, mindset, and psychology. I am curious to understand how to expand my mind into new territory and shift my beliefs. How to squeeze the most out of life by always seeking higher and better. I enjoy reading about those topics, I enjoy talking about them. What I truly love about it is that there are no boundaries how far your mind can go, I am so used to feeling constrained by law, you always have borders you must fit it. There was always a limit, but limits shed my sincerity. Step by step they took it away. I love sharing my opinions without borders, without barriers, just raw and honest thoughts with nobody telling me you can or cannot say this. I like the idea of discussing and searching for more wisdom, knowledge, and approaches. I also love the idea that my thoughts could help somebody if they would ever reach that somebody. I took the time to really look back and understand whether I have always been interested in sharing my thoughts, and I came to a conclusion I have, and it hasn’t been a passing matter, but rather a trait I have always had in me, but I just didn’t notice before.
Although I started with general questioning, they lead to specific points that I can say are a genuine interest of mine. Next, I took the step to identify whether I have the necessary skills required for that type of field. As a lawyer I have learned to express myself through my words, however, legal language is much different and the way I used to build up my text is much different than just discussing a personal development topic. Which is why I feel I don’t have the skills to express myself through my writing or videos when I talk about topics like the above. That means I have to improve my skillset in order for me to seem appealing to potential readers. Also, when sharing my thoughts on different platforms I also need to understand how the algorithm works and how to present myself in a way that catches attention.
The big but here is that, although I have managed to identify why I quit my job as a lawyer and what I would like to do next, I also need to find a way to monetize that genuine interest of mine. In all honesty I don’t need anything besides the internet to get going with earning money, however, that doesn’t mean that it is easy by any means. It is not. I don’t know if I will ever find a way to monetize my passion the way I would like to. But let’s see, the internet is full of different platforms that allow me to share my thoughts and potentially earn something with as well.
To sum it all up I quit my job because I don’t want to have the feeling on insincerity, feeling of doing something because of the sake of it, the feeling of having borders to my words. I want to feel that I am adding value and I am expressing my true self, and I am able to expand my horizons with enthusiasm. Don’t get me wrong there will always be tasks I would have to do that I don’t want to, that never leaves. But if you feel this way majority of the time that is not right. I want to live and work in a way that allows me always to seek my highest and best self. I am on the journey towards something else, something that I don’t know where it leads me, but I don’t care so much where exactly it takes me as long as I feel content and sincere that is all I need.
PS! I have another job, in a completely different field, that I am currently working on. Obviously, writing doesn’t pay my bills yet 😊