Lord, I’m ready to move forward

Monica Villanueva
Typewriter & Shutter
5 min readJul 12, 2019

The journey ahead of me is a lot to take in, but I’m ready. I’m ready ‘cause You prepared me so.

I’m ready to finally turn my back to the battles I’ve outgrown and now face a brand new chapter of my life. I’m ready to face whatever is in store for me and the people I’m meant to fight my new battles with. I’m ready to turn my entire life around as I step into a whole new level of making my relationship with You grow.

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I’m ready to believe in Your promises stronger. Things have gotten far from the way I thought You would be fulfilling Your promises. It even took a lot of time for me to process how things panned out. However, this doesn’t change the fact that Your plans are always better than my dreams. Teach me to hold on to this truth with more power every single day and in every circumstance I face.

Thank You for granting me the courage to not let anything get in the way of my faith when what happens to me makes me forget about Your promises. Thank You for making me realize that just because things could’ve been different, it doesn’t mean they’d be better. We both know that after everything I’ve been through, I ain’t seen nothing yet.

Life has a lot more difficult to offer, a lot more tests that run before teaching me the lessons.

Thank You for preparing me for more battlefields of different sorts by sustaining my heart with kindness and patience. As my beloved King, thank You for raising me not only as Your princess, but also as Your warrior in always making Love reign the throne. Please always remind me that the most powerful crown is made out of thorns.

No matter what Your plans are for me, I’m now ready for them as you made me be. Even if it means another heartbreak. Even if it means another crushed dream. Even if it means another loss.

If being broken would be a way of experiencing Your love even more, allow me to be broken harder.

If crushing my dreams would be a way of turning down the limits I’ve set for Your big plans for me, I offer You even the closest one to my heart.

If losing would be a way of giving me clearer eyes to see how blessed I truly am in Your beautiful Name, I surrender even the last bit of all I have to You.

I’m ready for the graces brought about by change. I have realized that moving forward comes with a lot of difficult pills to swallow and major turnarounds. It always involves big or small changes, the ones I may take hard to accept. Whatever the pace, fast or slow, I’m now ready to embrace the permanence of change. I will relentlessly embrace each new day with grace.

I’m ready to accept that the only way out of the pain is through. I understand that a lot of times You would take it the hard way of teaching me. That only proves Your unfailing love for me. You lead me out of the worst by guiding me through it until I’m prepared to have the best. This is how I get to know Your Word deeper. This is how I encounter Your Love further in the people I meet along the way.

Thank You for the people that stayed with me when I went through all the pain…the people that loved me even when I was at my worst. Thank You for my people.

I’m ready to meet new people while still treasuring the ones I’ve already grown a lot with. I’m ready to allow more people to create their own impact on my life. You have placed a lot of beautiful people in my path and I can’t imagine just how much more You have to offer. You have taught me a lot with the stories of so many people. You have prepared me to learn more as if I know nothing. I am already grateful for more stories to hear and experiences to make. I’m ready to move forward, bringing the lessons You taught me through the people that are already part of who I am.

Grant me the grace to love always.

Teach me to always put You first, to always put love first. Give me a heart that is willing to be broken by what’s according to Your plans and by what breaks Your heart. I long for nothing but to have a heart like Jesus. As I move forward, lead me to follow Your footsteps.

And when I can no longer have the strength to go on, carry me past through the most difficult tracks.

“Grant me, O Lord my God, a mind to know you, a heart to seek you, wisdom to find you, conduct pleasing to you, faithful perseverance in waiting for you, and a hope of finally embracing you. Amen.”

— St. Thomas Aquinas

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