Lisa Wilton
Apr 30 · 3 min read

And I’m simultaneously ecstatic and petrified…

by Drobot Dean, sourced from Adobe Stock

Some of you may have noticed that I’ve posted a little less on Medium this month. I can tell you now that it’s because I’ve been a busy little beaver, doing online courses and coding exercises.

I’ve found it really enjoyable, but I am still very aware that I’m very much at the beginner level of this journey. The great thing about this is that there are so many resources aimed at beginners. And I am lapping them up.

But I’m more worried about what comes after when it starts to get tough, (really tough).

I’m fully aware that this will happen and I want to push through it. That’s one of the reasons I looked into doing a coding boot camp.

There are so many boot camps available, but most of them are too costly for me at this time. They also offer, on average, just a few months of study, and that makes me a little nervous. So when I found Lambda School — a 9 month CS course that costs nothing until you have a job in the industry, it was a no brainer for me.

If you look online at reviews, opinions and information for Lambda School, you’ll find both positive and negative. The negative seems primarily concentrated on Reddit, so I take that with a pinch of salt. There are also opinions to be found stating that it’s a “scam”, a “glorified student loan” or “way too expensive”. I honestly think that people just have a tendency to assume the worst when they see something that seems “too good to be true”.

We seem to have a real lack of trust in people to go that extra mile to create something that is truly inspirational and helpful to folks. And that’s what I think Lambda is.

For me, paying for education after gaining a job in the industry is perfect. If Lambda School successfully educates me to a good enough standard to successfully pull off a career change and secure a job, I will gladly pay them the fees they request and sing their praises to all and sundry.

Where else am I going to get an opportunity to get educated in a completely new field with help to gain employment afterwards without any financial pressure? Where else can I pay for a course after the fact, only when I have enough money to do so, and where else would my payments stop if I earned below the threshold on any given month?

Lambda School is taking a gamble on me and I want to show them it was the right choice.

So I am incredibly excited to have been accepted and I’m really looking forward to the course. I start in August, so I have a bit of time to do other courses before I begin and hopefully get rid of some of that imposter syndrome that I’m suffering from right now.

I have the usual questions:

What if I fail?

What if I am not good or clever enough?

What if I can’t ever get a job?

What if I end up hating coding?

What if coding is all-consuming and I never have time for anything else?

What if I get a job and then totally mess up?

The fear of change is real, but I am determined to do my very best.

Also, I love solving problems, so hopefully that will help.

I have until August to prepare myself, so that’s exactly what I’m going to do. I have a list of resources to check off one by one.

Shit is about to get real. Wish me luck, internet people. I’ll let you know how it goes…

Mother of Codes

One woman’s attempt to break into tech.

Lisa Wilton

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Writer, photographer, tamer of animals, mother of cats, grower of trees & plants, herbal concoctress, occasional comedian. Blogs at

Mother of Codes

One woman’s attempt to break into tech.

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