loving someone for knowing myself
When you’re in relationship, you didn’t learn about your partner. You learn about yourself.
I always believe that whoever I am in a relationship with, it’s all nothing but to know more about who I really am. Friendship, romance, and even parental relationships. I understand that my personality can shift, and I need other people to help me get to know myself better.
This time, there is one thing in my life for which I am incredibly grateful, concerning my love for someone. It turned out that it taught me how I would fall in love with someone.
I’m an expressive person. There is almost no room for me to take all of my emotions for granted. When I like something, I’ll express it with whatever I have. My attention, concerns, and time.
I also don’t hesitate to contact first, inquire about how things are, invite someone out, and do anything else that I really want to do together.
It made me realize that I can be that sincere when I like a guy. Like words, I can give that person my entire life.
I learned about myself when I’m in love, how I worry about someone, and how I can become consumed by one person’s thoughts. Me who doesn’t think about anything else, me who is weak and doesn’t care if my feelings aren’t reciprocated as they should be. Only as a friend was, he thought to be okay. Neither less nor more.
When I fall in love, I know I’m a fucking idiot. I’m willing to go to any length to ensure his comfort. I was worried about him more than I was about myself. Sometimes I wonder why I’ve gotten this far. What exactly do I get out of everything I’ve done? I don’t know if I’ll get love back, so why am I so excited when I deal with the kindness of people I like? Why am I secretly in love with someone who has so many good prejudices. From afar, show my support.
How stupid am I? But as time passed, I realized something. When I fall in love, my personality changes. I will do both of these things. At the very least, I know which aspects of myself I must control and continue to express. At the very least, I know what I should not do and how to prevent something bad from happening again.
I must be able to consciously filter out what is worth fighting for. Because time is the most valuable thing in life. I let him off the hook this time to teach a valuable lesson.
Know more about myself and help me get older into a more mature human being and become a better woman.
I have no regrets about what I’ve gone through. Because, even though my love is one-sided, I can learn about myself and how I express myself through actions and words. I believe I have nothing to lose if I love someone who leads me to love myself.
Because of this experience, I realized that I shouldn’t fall in love with anyone so easily in the future. I feel compelled to find someone who values my sincerity.
He is not perfect, but he knows how to treat someone sincere.
