At least I got to taste how to be loved by you

riespeaks
Mr. Plan ₿ Publication
2 min readDec 17, 2024

The public got your coldest brush of your nails while I got to hold your softest — and that’s how I was convinced that what we had were tangible to keep.

Reading your POV won’t be added to my list, for I won’t tally the days I got scared stiff in finding out that the love you painted in me was an illusion. Save your side because what matters to me is the unknown home you vouchsafed me with bricks, which prayed for me in my Sunday mornings, patted my head in my less pleasant days, whispered how I look like Aphrodite in my ugly as sin reflection, and did my laundry while I sleep on a couch with scattered medicines.

You were there…

In the thick of your moments, bothered by the anguish you carried, I never hesitated to cut my arms to connect with you so you could bear it weightless; I continued planting parts of me until your lifeless eyes could accept oxygen again. The silent anger and curses you screamed — I heard it all — I noted every rotten gold you sealed. I remember how you called my name and how I left everything to attend to you and give you the warmth under the spring snow.

I was there…

We both went to the gym, where we became the talk of the town. We painted red on festivals’ lanterns, inserting a note of our wishes. We weeped together until darkness met the sunrise at 6am. We planned names for our future pets and children. We argued who’s the better architect for the most featured blueprint. We exchanged I love you’s like it consists of a million paragraphs for a lifetime assurance.

And I hoped there’s really something…

You left like a faceless man who appeared in my dreams to just lead me on. But I managed to smile back, staring at your polaroid pictures inside my memory box — I get to love you, and you get to love me in a way no one else did.

At least it was a real one in my POV…

Because a trial of being included in your world is better than not knowing you exist.

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