When was Exactly My Heart Beating For You?
I stopped to send up prayers to the heavens. I used to yearn for someone who would accept me exactly as I am, without any reservations, hesitations, or qualms. I was sick of having to defend my identity to each new acquaintance.
I gave up trying to find someone new. Gave up to experience love. I began to believe that the concept of true love was merely a myth. Only in fairy tales can one find true love. Every pair, in my opinion, was just acting like they loved each other; perhaps one was the giver and the other was the taker. What a corny life! Cliché.
I was too lost to be located. I just had days of apathy. To ensure that I didn’t waste time daydreaming, I kept myself busy. It has been years, as far as I know.
Occasionally, however, the cosmos will add a fresh hue to your otherwise boring existence. You appeared one day with a sweet, innocent smile. Remind me that I wasn’t really that lost or difficult to find.
You saved me during my lowest hour. You cling to me until all of my fractures are complete. You knock down my wall as if it were just paper. Your eyes are as warm as sunshine. You observe me. Observe my dull past, which made me who I am. Gently look into my eyes to let me know that I am deeply loved. My world suddenly started spinning again.
Every day, you make me fall more in love with you. Once again, I want to entrust my heart to someone. I want you over and over again. You are my first breath when I open my eyes in the morning and my final sight in the evening before I end my day. I begin to want your voice — my calming wave for my coast. You are my solid ground — my home.
Thank you for coming into my life and choosing to stay within. Let us grow older and become better people together. In the near future, we will have ups and downs; remain by my side and grasp my hand as we ride the roller coaster of life together.
So, when precisely did my heart start pounding for you? I’m not sure, but what I do know is that right now and for the rest of my life, I love you with every breath I take.
