Day 20

Still very unsettled scenario. He’s going on and off, and I’m not really caring. Things are feeling like stuck in the middle. And I don’t have the enthusiasm of taking “initiatives” anymore.

The kind of brain fitted inside my body-complex doesn’t really allow me to keep things unattended. Either I do something about them, or I completely dump them (like I once did with my studies). There is no in between!

But this guy is testing my limits! That’s why he took birth, to test me! (This is supposed to be a joke, though!)

So, I don’t know why (I’m so desperate) but I want to do something about it. I might sound/look like I am in a hurry or something, but I really am tired now. And I cannot stretch it any further with my bare hands. I need another pair!

Till then, still sailing in the sea of struggles. Will see what the stream brings with itself! No choice, other than being patient and wait!