Day 22

[Late Post]

Had a busy day. Got a bit sick also, so didn’t really enjoy everything. Was busy too, so less about him anyway. But the pinned thought comes alive when I get alone.

Whenever you are alone, you have no choice other than facing yourself. At that time, you’ve no one and nothing to distract yourself with, and that’s when the innermost demons become alive, that’s when they are in their full action too. And this happened today.

When I was with people, or my friends or family, I was doing great, but as soon as I got sequestered by any of these, those demons gave me a warm hug and sat with me. They didn’t allow me to feel alone. And I had no choice apart from staying in their company.

It did feel bad when those thoughts were coming. And it was at times, getting really hard to accept the fact that I have to consider my life without him now! Haha, “consider”!

I guess I’m just too tired of him that even his thoughts make me feel tired. Where did all the “love” go? I was so sure that I would never give up on him! What happened to us? Why did we have to see this day? Things were going great. Why did I have to ask for a commitment?! Why doesn’t he got sure of me, even after spending all this time together? Why?!