Day 77: Van Living As Meditation
I’m trying to think of something to write but nothing is coming to mind except for complaints, frustrations, and idealizations of something different, like not being with Chester for some time or owning land in a comfortable area that I can return to for a recharge.
My body batteries have felt low recently. Not so low to the point of burning out, but pretty low. However, they are starting to recharge. I know this because I have perspective. This perspective allows me to not take inconveniences and romantic ideas too seriously. There is more space for ease, acceptance, and reality.
Two days ago, I drove from one closed campground to the next for three hours. Yesterday, I was confused about where I wanted to go and who I wanted to see. And, today, I am frustrated with Chester snoring as I am writing this. But I can let these thoughts and inconveniences go more readily and not dwell on them.
I attribute this ability to living in a van. Living in a van opens up endless opportunities for meditation through the technique of letting go.
When you go from living in an apartment in a good area with no dog to a van in questionable areas with a puppy hunting dog, you learn to let things go more readily. You either learn this or become angry, resentful, or depressed. I have experienced all of these emotions, surface level like right now and also very deeply from holding onto them.
With grace, faith, self-forgiveness, and a morning routine that includes movement and seated meditation, I’ve been able to move past negative emotions and not let them cripple me. Doing one thing helps as well.
Now I understand why people say rent a van before buying one, outfitting it, and doing the van life thing. I understand it but don’t agree with it. I think you should do whatever interests you. Buy the van, outfit it, and use it however you want. You don’t have to prove anything to anyone.
The only thing I would suggest is to experience out negative emotions and let them go to understand whether you truly like something or not. This can apply to van life, living with a dog, or working a certain job.
I’m just starting to return to my morning meditation routine, but, during my off time, van life filled the gaps. There’s plenty to let go of with van life and even more to enjoy.
