the girl decided you weren’t good enough and flew to paris to get with your best friend after you spent 3 months with her

you ever think like you should be fine at a certain point but god damn it’s been like 2 months and you still feel like ass?

and then you kinda wonder what the fuck is wrong with you, why aren’t you over it and everyone else kinda expects you to be over it because they’re not interested anymore because it’s not like anything NEW has happened, you’re in the same position you were in, things just haven’t improved but you can feel like you’re boring them so you don’t bring it up and instead internalize things because you don’t want to bore people because god forbid you lose more friends from your life. and you can tell that when your friends see you’re down they move the topic on from you or her or him.

so then theres this weird grey period where externally you don’t talk about it anymore, you pretend everything is fine but inside some things just set you off about the time you spent together and you might have a mini panic attack or wake up feeling absolutely awful but then you just slap on a happy face and proceed.

and its not like it’s a dick move from your friends. its totally understandable! its the noble thing to say ‘yeah talk to me whenever, i’ll be here’ but things get old pretty quick. 2 months is a long time to repeat the same story over and over and over again.

man, never ever ever fuckin date anyone in your friend circle. by god, that is a woooooorld of trouble. also try to not believe what people say anymore and judge em by their actions instead of their words. also best friends don’t mean jack shit when they get turned on. people lie! fucks sake.

so just power on and ignore thoughts. try to like paris again. city of love. psh. so fucking cliche. pshhhhh. paris is a beautiful city im sure.