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How I Calm Fears in the Night
Use my tricks for re-balancing your nervous system when stressed, fearful, or triggered
I love living alone. And I hate living alone when I’m thrust into fear in the middle of the night. In those frightening moments, I wish there was someone here to comfort me, tell me what to do, and dismiss my fears.
I’ve always been subject to fear at night. As a child, when I laid my head on the pillow, I feared the man under the bed or the one in the closet. Feeling alone with those concerns, it naturally took time to get to sleep.
As a young adult, I suffered an assault in the middle of the night. Now I had a good reason to fear the dark morning hours. It took decades to heal that fear to the extent I could live alone.
But I still have nightmares from time to time that bolt me upright.
As I’ve aged, my night fears have taken yet another form.
- When I wake up and feel a pain in my head, I wonder, “Is it a stroke?”
- When I wake up and feel tension in my back, I wonder, “Is it a heart attack?”
- When I wake up and feel my fingers tingling, I wonder, “Is this the end?”
In one sense, I’m more at peace with death than ever before.
