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The Heavy Weight of The Spiritual Awakening Experience
A complete and total mess filled with pain, confusion, and isolation
Many people see a spiritual awakening as a golden ticket to a fairytale paradise.
We hear talks of bliss, clarity, and enlightenment that make it all look like the shimmer on the surface of a lake, but stir the water, and it begins to look like waves of grief threatening to drown you.
I’ve walked the rocky path of spiritual awakening for over a decade now, and it’s not the love and light that we so often hear about. It is a complete and total mess filled with pain, confusion, and an isolation that leaves you panting for breath.
There was a time in my journey when I would drive into the forest in the middle of the night because I was losing my mind. I would scream until my voice was hoarse. At that time, my spiritual awakening felt like a storm—an overwhelming experience that turned my world upside down. Everything was falling apart, and I had nothing solid to hold onto.
There were nights when I would wander around my neighborhood, lost in thoughts of the simple life I once knew before my awakening.
Relationships were easier. They were toxic for sure, but they still provided company, so I didn't feel as alone as I…
