Am I Stuck or Is It a Divine Pause?
Waiting and wondering
The purge came first
“The road to our awakened self is hardly linear, and it’s only human to pause at every intersection and question if you’re on the right path — I’ve been walking that road.”
It all began in 2019.
The personal apocalypse started with the purging of intimate connections and grew darker with unannounced health scares, a job loss, and a dreadful new job.
The tower moments continued relentlessly through an unplanned career sabbatical, releasing my rented apartment, and embracing a nomadic lifestyle.
But there was more to it.
A deeper transformation was unfolding within: I was gradually breaking free from my shell, feeling drawn to spiritual modalities, craving isolation, claiming my authentic self, and safeguarding my sanity and peace at any cost.
Over the years, life had dragged me through dark alleys, forcing me to confront shadows at every turn.
Life had been rolling in the fast lane, and then the wheel came to a halt.
Now what?
A World In-Between Worlds
“Waiting is one of the most challenging aspects of our experiential existence.”
Time seems to have stood still as I find myself suspended in a world between worlds — a realm holding the promise of a better tomorrow, yet to emerge.
So, I live in this void now, waiting to be born again.
Trapped between what was and what will be, I wonder:
Will I ever transcend this void?
Will the losses pave the way for new beginnings?
Am I stuck, or is this a divine pause?
