PSYCHOLOGY | EMOTIONS | SELF-HELP

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Working as my own shrink.

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In the early years after Runaway Romeo’s departure, I read tons of self-help books. I watched every YouTube video ever posted on narcissistic abuse recovery 24/7. After a couple of years of binge-watching and reading everything I could get my hands on, I found myself in information overload.

I felt as if my brain had turned into swiss cheese — full of holes.

Has your mind ever hurt from thinking? Mine did. I felt as if I couldn’t absorb any more information.

The things I desperately needed to remember and internalize were seeping out, yet I had so much more to learn. I had to find a way to cram more into an already-stuffed brain.

I had no job, no money, and no health insurance. I couldn’t pay to see a therapist. I would have to be my own shrink — so I set about to do just that. I took turns sitting in the therapist’s chair and alternately lying on the couch.

I needed to overwrite my old programming if I ever planned to extricate myself from depression and move past what I thought was the end of my life.

This required some rather creative problem-solving.

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A Spark Of Insight

So, to help myself, I began taking critical concepts from all those videos and blogs and formatting them into visual flashcards — i.e., memes and infographics — such as the one above.

I posted them everywhere, on my bathroom mirror, on my bedside table, and by the entrance and exits of the house.

I approached this endeavor like a college assignment. I imagined that I would later be required to teach what I’d learned to a class of newly abandoned chumps like myself. In other words, what did I think people needed to know and accept right away to shortcut their pain?

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It turned out to be fun.

Einstein said creativity is intelligence having fun; I think he was onto something.

In my case, I took something I needed to do (internalize new ways of thinking), and I combined it with something I already loved to do (playing with graphics).

I know it may sound silly, but I made this my inducement to continue slogging through the process of installing continuous updates on my emotional hard drive.

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I suppose, in some way; I was like a pet parent rewarding a new puppy with dog treats during the potty training process.

I ‘treated’ myself to respites of visual creativity only after I dutifully finished my dry study on narcissistic abuse, emotional manipulation tactics, and personality disorders.

It worked.

I still can’t think of anything I enjoy more than perusing great stock photos and incorporating beautiful ones into a graphical layout.

During my endeavor, I earned an imaginary Ph.D. in Chump Science.

Bang! Write that down.

Win-Win.

I’ve moved on to other more entertaining topics. Creative problem-solving saved my bacon. It proved to be a great tow-rope that helped pull me out of my deep depression and hopelessness.

Life is good again.

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You didn’t think I’d make it all the way to the end of this article without weaving humor in somewhere, did you? LOL

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Taylor-Grace Davidson

Taylor-Grace Davidson

Invert. Always Invert. Flip problems upside down & address them backward. Avoiding stupidity IS better than seeking brilliance.