The Edge
- or The Sadness of BEcoming Alive -
As I was preparing buckwheat in my pajamas for breakfast, suddenly a wave of clarity came through me.
I heard a story ones.
This story goes like this:
After matriarchy and patriarchy run their course, archiarchy is next culture where initiated adult men and initiated adult women live together thriving with their bright principles so that their archetypal lineage can come trough.
I believed that story and all the memes around it became mine.
Today something else about this comes through my center, my pelvic floor.
While listening to all the women on Instagram and other platforms about founding your business the past two years, I had this taste in my mouth about it. I thought I am the cruelest person on earth not going in that direction asap and collaborating.
I realized how I was in linear thinking about this story and that a part of me always felt fear when I opened Instagram. Honestly I felt like sirenes are talking to me from time to time.
“Come Christine. Play with us.”
What I hear is to be invited to play matriarchy with creating gameworlds and businesses to balance out patriarchy. I could do that. Why am I not doing that?
Because I feel angry about it because I have been there. I watched it already in school, the rise of patriarchal territories and matriarchal territories which balance each other out. Yet, they don`t seem to see each other from time to time. I feel tired by seeing this.
I want to collaborate differently and it seems to me like I am still in school playing the same part I play now and standing at the side watching how everyone runs into these gameworlds/territories/archies.
AND I feel the hysteria of this.
Sometimes it looks to me like a really bad relationship where man and women play out Gremlin Intimacy mostly a narcassitic role as survival strategy encounters a hysterical role as survival strategy and there it goes, patriarchy and matriarchy running their show.
There was no matriarchy and then came patriarchy and now the next thing will be archiarchy. In my head it sounds like ‘and then the next thing AND then the next thing’ until my head spins.
And by all this spinning in my head with ‘the next thing AND the next thing’ telling the story about ‘the next thing’ with the linear thinking of patriarchy, my head starts to move in circles. Isn`t that fun.
What happens nowadays might be Women‘ s Rage to expand through Matriarchy into Patriarchy and create Archiarchy. What happens today might be Men‘ s Rage to expand through Patriarchy into Matriarchy and create Archiarchy. What also happens is Women‘ s Rage expanding through Patriarchy into Matriarchy. What also happens is Men‘ s Rage expanding through Patriarchy into Matriarchy.
This happens. This happened. This is necessary no matter what you name this process. And it can be linear like a sword.
AND it is also cyclic while it is linear.
Energy finds its way, it is a force and whatever you or your soul/higher self/archetypal lineage, you name it — whatever this part of you needs to do in order to find the edge. GO!
That is how big the force is of us wanting to be centered and balanced again, like walking on a slackline.
So I have another story to add to the one above. For me it is a breakthrough in a way that I can hear my own voice and feeling my center so much that I am writing these lines and I cry, I smile, I shake and my jaw tenses as there is anger, fear, sadness and joy.
So here it goes:
What happened WAS that earth tried to balance itself. What happens IS that earth tries to balance itself. Healing.Transformation.Expansion….
Matriarchy existed and patriarchy existed at the same time. Soon a dysbalance happened. Let’s say patriarchy got stronger as I feel it in my system.
This dysbalance is still there.
What we see is a dance between patriarchal structures and matriarchal structures.
While trying to be in a relationship with each other, basically relationship between male and female principles sometimes the shadow principles get too strong which then leads in rising of bright principles and the other way around which leads to the next cycle AND the ‘next cycle’ ot things. The ‘next thing’ can be all or nothing.
Archiarchy is not the next thing. It is already here.
Archiarchy is the edge. Archiarchy is where your x is on the map of things concering the edge. It is the edges that you will find, have found and finding right now.
And one part of the edge is to balance this out. The edge is to be aware of the dysbalance on the planet and to find the balance in you and to use the shadow principles of both worlds to land in archiarchy with your bright principles being expressed through you, the ‘middle’, in yourself, centered, grounded, bubbled. Nothing more, nothing less, nothing AND everything at the same time!
Archiarchy is where the edge is. The edge in every moment, every second, every day in every person, every relation.
And the greatest joy, fear, sadness and anger is to thrive there.
And it has its price. Maybe you never find the edge again, living in fear from time to time being sucked in by the one or the other gameworld too much and drown by the shadow of yours or others.
AND
Sometimes you fall off of the edge and find new ground and sometimes you stay in the groundlessness maybe even coming back in another lifetime. Sometimes you love the falling, sometimes not, sometimes you see the edge but will not go near it, sometimes you need to run as fast as you can over it and sometimes you don’t even recognize that there is an edge.
YOU CAN NOT NOT PLAY A PART IN THIS!
CAUSE GAIA IS IN YOU AND AROUND YOU!
This could be a different story of things and puts you in the center of you, in the center of what needs to happen, the center of what happened and the center of what is happening…in the center you are already here, there and nowhere.
As these stories exist it needs all people who believe these stories from time to time & act upon them so that balance can happen AND stories in stories, in stories, in stories through stories, through stories, through stories exist.
To me the edge is the place to BE. Through all the con(fusion) with and from feeling mad, sad, glad and scared. Being stuck in a any kind of fusion for too long without a possible movement makes it con(cret) and harder to turn shit to gold.
To stand in confusion without getting confused is the experiment to being centered in a storm.
The rest of this article I wrote in my head while jogging.
There is no written proof of its existence.
You can choose from the edge of this story, of yourself, of what you get from this AND continue with the ‘next thing’…
Thank you
Christine
