March 2018 — Overwhelming. | Review Notes
This month is really hard for me, probably is one of the hardest months in my life until now. I was trying hard to come out a word that might be a good one for the topic to cover the feeling that I experience for these days, and might not be propitiate enough, but somehow reflect feeling that I can not describe. Of course, behind the exhausted, I strongly feel a sense of growing and passion for future life. You know that people always saying
You suffer than you grow.
According to Cambridge Dictionary. Overwhelming adjective, here are some explanations.
C1 difficult to fight against: She felt an overwhelming urge/desire/need to tell someone about what had happened.
C1 very great or very large: She said how much she appreciated the overwhelming generosity of the public in responding to the appeal.
An overwhelming majority has voted in favour of the proposal.
To me, too much information from personal relationship, travel to Israel, academic studies, personal development and etc.
Try to put everything in order on what happened and what I learned on March is a time-consuming work and hopefully there are some positive stuff that you can take away from the Notes.
Life
This is the hardest times that I ever had. Because different kind of reasons, I and my roommates choose to sublease our studios and she moved to a bedroom near columbia and I move to a new one bedroom one bath room apartment in Long Island City with one of my friends. Building is quite nice with swimming pool(which is my requirement when searching apartment) and I got my own space that I will try to do meditation a silent writing later on. But I do feel there is something lost in my life.
And I gradually find out that managing intimate relationship is one of the hardest things for me. I might not educated or experienced with it but really care about the feeling I have when experiencing. So it leads to a difficult situation whether I should continue and how to deal with the fear of lose.
Though it seems happened a lot in people’s daily life, it is truly the first time that I encounter. Rather to consult with so called expert, and plus my earlier desire to go deeper in psychology. I will take a three months psychology course online to seek out the reasons behind presentations and learn how to solve them by using my own inner power.
Travel
Since we have a spring festival for around 10 days which is a great period of time
Check out my bog below to know more about the trip.
Israel was not on my list of countries to visit, but now I am sitting at home to write review about the trip and this month. I suddenly come out an idea.
There might be something that will just happen unexpectedly which will lead to a even better results that we never expected.
Work
Internship
On 26th March, actually this is the first Monday that I back to Mogul which is the company I am interning for around five months. And since the key tasks for me has shift from the original one (leads generation) to event planning which needs more decision making which is not suitable for me. Though interning at Mogul is really a nice experience, after chatting with my supervisor, We together decide to end the internship. This is a great experience for me and it is also a good time to start with something new.
Hi China Club
After entering graduate life, I find it is hard to find passion with student organization, most of students either put more attention on searching internship and full time jobs or enjoy their life. Since some of you may know that I really devote lots of my time in an worldwide organization called AIESEC when I was during my undergraduate life. I still hold strong motivation to run student organization again.
After get back from Israel, I feel that bring Non-Chinese students to China is a great thing to do and I begin to realize the importance and possibility that I can achieve something if I treat Hi China Club seriously since one of the key project is China Insight Trek which is aiming to bring NYU students to China for a 9-days trek. So I begin to build the online platforms and image for HCC NYU and decide to put more effort on HR structure for consistency development.
Here is the website for HCC NYU, do check out if you are interest.
What I am reading/listening:
50 Best Content Marketing Brands of 2018
How Famous Writers Awaken Their Creativity
This articles inspired me about the Writing Ritual which is something you might going to do before you write, and these certain things can help you to entering a situation. Also we can create some rituals to help with other aspects of life. I am going to write a blog about Ritual later since I decide to do more research on it and form my own rituals.
The Productivity Subculture That Won’t Quit
Compare to electronic planner, I also prefer to use paper planner, just feel it is good when you touching and flipping papers. But I always forget to bring my planner though I do have one, so most of time I still using calendar on my laptop to write down to do list. Will try to use paper planner for a while with colorful pens and might generate a blog related to paper planner.
Simply Changing My LinkedIn Bio Changed My Priorities: Try It For Yourself.
Writing bio is really a hard thing because you need to shorten your life into few sentences and most of times to want to show how great we are but actually we are not showing our value. This blog will help you if you are thinking how to write Linkedin profile with purpose.
What I am planning
Next Life Step
Actually one big thing I am planning is Gap Year, but what drive me crazy is that I cannot make the decision easily because of many factors, for instance I need to sublease again my new apartment, need to persuade my parents which will be very hard, and I need to plan in advance for the whole year because I don’t want to waste time for the only chance in my life. So I am currently accepting interviews and trying to figure out the best timeline for my upcoming year.
Of course, I might end up not taking gap year and continue my study in NYU in the following year. I don’t know which road I will take, hopefully I won’t do something I will regret in the future.
Life Ritual
For the 23 years I had been through, I found out that actually there is no rituals in my life. I am not mean that everyone should have one, or you are not right if you don’t have one . I just fell admired when my friends said: If I am not feeling happy, I will go and grab something good to eat and this will satisfy me. And some of my friends said they can improve their mood by cleaning up the bedroom. I am admire because they know how can they change their mood by doing something. But I don’t have these things that can change my mood.
Especially recently I am facing tremendous stress psychologically, sometimes I feel extremely powerless when I saw something that bonded with certain memory that hurts me.
To rather escape, I want to establish some new rituals that can help me to go through this difficult period. To be hones I even don‘t know whether I can make it or not. Hopefully become a better self is just matter of time, and I keep telling myself this is the essential step to go over for everyone‘s life, it just happen now to me.
Monthly Soul Sentence.
“You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.” Gandhi
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