Gems Earned In 2019
2019 was the hardest year of my life. I lost my mother who was my role model, my rock and my provider of guidance. Breast cancer took my mother months after she turned 60 and the experience has changed my life forever. Over the course of the year I exhibited every emotion and embraced every phase of grieving. Right now as I write this I am amazed at how I was able to navigate the year and accomplish goals. But then I think back to all the valuable lessons my mother instailled in me and the promise I made to her. I promised to continue striving for the best, blazing my own path and to keep living life on my terms. The year took a lot from me, taught me a lot and ultimately reshaped me in a way that I could have never imagined. Here are the gems that I eanred, while my mother’s light shined over me.
There was a time when I saw only 1 set of footprints in the sand and thought I was alone. Now I know it was you carrying me: Ma is always with me, at times by my side and other times carrying me.
You free now Mommy. Be in peace 🌷
Seek the single source of truth and live within it because there is no other option: Happiness and sadness come and go like all emotions but truth is the only consistent and never changing thing. Embrace the truths and live within them and it will bring a level of calmness that is the closet to the universe we can get in the physical form.
More than likely she’ll say Nelson grind: If there is one thing that I could always count on my mother to do it would be her letting me know I have to keep doing me. Regardless of what the outside world is throwing at me. Stay solid and keep going. Keep moving forward even if its only a crawl.
Pray or worry … Don’t do both: Trust in the higher power and then move accordingly or fear what could go wrong and stay stuck. There is no way to do both. I choose to pray.
Let It All Work Out: The universe has the finally say in what will be. As I walk this earth my duty is to first identify what it is that I can control and what I can’t. It is a traumatic experience to lose my mother, one that has changed me forever. What I can say after it all is that I trusted the higher power and focused on what I could control. In the end thats all you can ask of yourself.
Narratives ≠ Truth, Feelings ≠ Truth, Thoughts ≠ Truth. Truth = Truth: The truth can not be mistaken for anything else. I looked the truth right in the eye and promised to live within in. I accomplished a lot in my life but the truth is none of it matters if my ultimate goal is to reach my maximum potential. I lived in the truth and rebuilt my skills from the ground up to help secure a new role, keep my business going and venture in new territory. Embrace the truth.
Everyday is the first day of forever … Let’s Begin: Thankful for each and every day that I wake up and get another shot at feeling every possible feeling and experimenting with life. Each day is a new shot to build, love, embrace and do what you want. I will never take this for granted.
Be able to look deep inside your soul to block out all the noise and find the truth: It’s your life you are living. You can’t live anyone else’s and no can live yours. This is a gift that you must understand and then leverage. The only way to truly live it to the fullest is by digging deep inside who you are to see what makes you tick and what your truth is. Only you can define that and its the only way you can tap into what you are meant to be.
We live in the world our questions create: The mind is such a powerful tool. It can create our reality, shape our future and rewrite our past. The key is understanding that the mind is a tool that you must gain control of so you can see life for what it really is. From there you can shape your own reality based in truth. But first you have to gain control of the mind.
Stick to the script: Playing the game takes supreme discipline in order to rise above the distractions and hurdles that come with it. Survey the landscape, map out your moves and then stick to the script as you navigate the game.
It’s Your Time Now: Ma got me through the rain so I can experience the sunshine with a new level of gratitude. Embrace the sunshine and know that rain isn’t all you deserve.
