I don’t want to write this right now so I quit

It was a friend’s birthday last night and I’m hungover and tired. It’s 9:30pm. I’m not gonna write anything. 10 days into my commitment of publishing 365 days in a row, I give up.

What’s the point, anyway?

I don’t make any money for this. Maybe two people will notice. I could be spending time reading, working, working out, sleeping, making new friends, doing drugs, kicking pigeons. I’m going to France on Tuesday. Why would I waste my precious travel time writing nonsense?

Smart people can rationalize any behavior, good or bad for them. Even idiots like me can do it.

I don’t have time to write every day, because I have other commitments that actually make me money, so it’s not worth my time.

I can’t workout before work, go on that trip, start that business, talk to that girl, because I have a very good reason why I should never do anything that makes me uncomfortable.

Everybody rationalizes every decision. If you’re going to do it anyway, why not start by picking the more productive, long-term decision, then work backwards and rationalize that?

Most people start with the unproductive decision, then rationalize it, because it’s a habit. But you can make choosing the better thing a habit, too. It’s just consistency.

We make decisions based on emotion, then rationalize it later. Fear hits us, and we turn the opposite direction, or close our eyes and do nothing until it passes. Unless we change that habit.

You can do anything. All decisions are a cost-benefit analysis. A 75-year old could start a business, go Skydiving, divorce his wife. If he doesn’t it’s just because it doesn’t make sense in that analysis. It doesn’t make sense for me to walk up to the first girl I see on the street and propose. But I could.

I am going to write every day, because I believe it will pay off long-term. And if it doesn’t, I lost nothing but some time spent enjoying something I like.

I don’t have time, money, I can’t, I won’t, I shouldn’t, I will, but not now …

They’re all stories. They’re all bullshit.

If you want to come up with a story of why not to do something, you’ll come up with a good story. If you want to come up with a story of why to do something, you’ll come up with a good story.

Pick the good thing first. Then rationalize why you can do it. Then do it. Even if it’s uncomfortable. It’ll become habit eventually.

The habit of picking the good thing cascades to every decision.

You make up a story either way. Stop defaulting to the one where you characterize yourself as a self-sabotaging asshole.

Most of us do. I do.

So I hit publish today, because it was the harder thing, but I could.

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