ROAR of the Lion: How My Spiritual Illusions Crumbled Again

Everything You Wouldn’t Expect From An Awakening of Consciousness

I recently took a break from writing. Over the past two months, I’ve been somewhat lost, not really understanding what was happening with me. Any writing or sharing seemed pointless to me for awhile. It’s a bit like driving through a dark tunnel where you can’t see anything without the lights on. Somewhat.

It reminded me of 2015 when my life fell apart. I felt as if I didn’t exist in this world, merely getting through each day, completely withdrawn from life, social encounters, and my profession.

Now, after 7–8 years living in my darkness, I feel like I’ve become “human” again. My life momentarily lost its mysticism. I completely lost interest in whatever spiritual awakening I had experienced, or however you want to term it. It now seems like just a bad dream. Things from my past that I was involved with, things I thought I’d never be interested in again or wouldn’t want to do, are surprisingly back in my life. My professional work, meeting people, new friends, parties running my old business — everything suddenly returned after a 7-year hiatus.

It’s as if everything is falling back into place, yet everything feels right as never before. Without any heaviness.

I feel comfortable in my body, and things that irritated me over the last 7 years now seem just okay. You know, when I experienced my first…