Chapter 1.1 — Research

I am back, at some point I started writing in third person and realized that I am trying to escape something, using we instead of I, at some point, I started considering myself always a part of something else when I am writing and that is a bit creepy, I cant even explain properly how many times even during this small paragraph my first thought was starting it with we. I am going to work on it though, it is a new beginning after an end.

So what is this about? Why is this about?
After a long conversation with myself and listening to a friend share their experience, I realized that maybe in my current situation, I am deemed unforgivable and that is okay, I have asked for forgiveness and I have asked for trust, for a chance, and I have asked and apologized enough times, I have been pushed away, and I have been told multiple times how worse I am compared to other people. I am going to go back where I was a dead man with a heart beat, cruelly logical and still human but deliberately, and instinctually trustworthy with distanced involvement.

Hence, today I will work on two different things. one is resolution or a vow, it is to respect myself and her, I do not understand and relate to her situation, and she cannot understand everything I am going through either, which is okay. I attempted communication and I was pushed way, so that is okay, if the only two…