30/12/2019

In

Notes

You find what you’re looking for

so many mistakes in my logic and not taking in to account all the variables -> this was one year of fighting my ignorance / superficiality / shallow thinking

this journal is a beautiful mess like my mind (some structure and order is needed)

There is so much room for learning and growing

You will understand others only if you understood yourself, your pain

Maybe because I was born in a good context not experiencing what a real tragedy or abuse means I’m so shallow

You can write only about what you are/experienced anything else just doesn’t have any substance

So what should I write about then?

Anxiety, love, betrayal, loneliness and depression

All of this I’ve experienced because somehow I’ve increased my sensitivity to external stimuli (I’ve let go of the mechanisms of protection in order to find what I was unwilling to feel)

You are what you consume(mentally & physically)

Your reality is created based on what is familiar (easy to access)

Reach level 6 on dual n-back

almost last day from December 2019 (sunny day)