wrong timeline
In the back of my mind you are always just arriving
So gracefully
And my worst nightmares are not even the goodbyes,
but realizing we could have had it all
My insistence in staying where I don’t belong anymore
trying to figure out when exactly I became this wallflower around you
In my mind there’s still a place where you live
Untouched
There is a universe
in which we still exist
and a timeline that loops our good moments together
In that reality I never leave
you never find someone
We remain
Yet
the reality that would comfort me the most
is the one we never meet
I can’t help but find unfair
when two people meet
their lives are not equally affected
One side is always hurt
and now I’m on this side
I long for the day
when all the alternate realities
of you and me
will crumble
and set me free
