My Life, From 2012–2020

Please Stop Telling Me To Leave Him

I’m still with him because I can’t.

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[Beginning note: this is what I’ll call a “retro-story” of sorts. It’s no longer true for me, but it was up until recently. The thoughts and feelings are still fresh.]

I married a dark man. That’s not surprising; I was in a dark place at the time we met…




Relationships, love, fascination. Narcissism, psychopathy, sociopathy. LGBT, open, unconventional. I’ve been through it all. Maybe you have too?

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My dearest friends, family and loved ones,

I miss you!!!

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