Needed or Wanted
You were the unexpected taunt,
the one that I never knew I hunted for.
But you weren’t a want,
you were a need rampaging through me like a war.
The fury of battling emotions,
swirling inside of me,
as I struggle to accept this absolution,
that you see me as only I could see.
Why does your safety create such fear,
when it must be what I sought.
Yet, the calm you bring when you are near,
became more important than I thought.
The words I want to say,
the words that slip out unawares,
Cause me painful dismay,
as they define my cares.
Why didn’t I see it coming?
Why did I leave myself so open?
How did I end up filled with such dreaming,
that you have awoken?
Yet, I cannot find the strength,
to open my heart to all you offer.
Instead, I keep you at arm’s length,
afraid of what I will suffer.
Risk it all for a love I never knew existed,
or hide back in my little shell.
I wish my heart had opened,
to the emotions I cannot quell.
I do want you really,
deep in my soul,
so painfully,
naturally,
and yet so impossibly.
With the heart you stole.
