Played Myself
“Played Myself”
I wish I could inspire you to love me with a verse
If I could, I would write until my hand hurts
Or mind breaks
Thoughts of us would fix it
I tell myself not to waste time wishing you felt different
My heart feels different
I keep wishing
I remember us kissing
I know I felt something different
Than you proclaim
I know we made love
I know it won’t just sex
I know you wanted us to move to the next
Level
I was convinced by devils
That we wouldn’t be special
Now I’m paying for it with your rejection
And if it’s true you never felt for me
I wonder what did I see
I wonder how I could have been so blinded
I wish it was just timing
Cause I could wait
But I guess I played myself
Cause I don’t know why I could think
You’d feel for me
Or why I think you feel for me
Or why I wouldn’t just keep my damn mouth shut
Or why I allowed myself to want us
Or why I believed it would happen
Or why I hope your mind changes
Or why I tore down my pride to tell you
Or why it hurts like hell
I guess its cause…I played myself
(That’s what I got for thinking)