There is this point in self-awareness development where we start to realize that we co-create the experience with the Observer.
I’m in the awkward phase of growth where I can see that this is the case but I don’t feel like I can do anything with it. I’ve woken up from the numbness only to see that people operate there to avoid pain and suffering. And maybe sometimes I want to just pretend like I am still in the numbness too. Steering a conversation with someone that is not self-aware can be painful if we don’t step in with an alternative narrative. That takes a lot of effort and then we have to be careful of whether the new narrative itself would be more upsetting. Sometimes I just sit in anger from frustration. I tend to emote these feelings and allow them to exist in the physical realm under my breath and behind closed doors. The image of Gollum comes to mind.
Then I must let the Observer mind embody me and guide me so that I’m not distracted from my goals. With compassion, harmony, and love as the headspace I choose to exist in, the higher knowing can lead me based on whatever steps will get me to those feelings. If grace is important enough to me, then I will gravitate toward that path. It will feel right and good. If success is important to me, I must first define what success looks like and feels like. When I embody the feelings I would have in that state, I make it a reality. I am that future self in different circumstances. Just as certain as I am in that future, I stand as that future self in this time and place knowing I will receive what is promised.