Contemplation
There’s this place I know,
straight down from Shitsville, and to the West .
It’s a broilin’ sleez pit,
run by Rocco.
Rocco’s a greasy haired Italian,
or Spaniard, or Greek.
I never asked, cuz I only saw him a few times.
A few jobs.
A few crooked ladders.
Rocco has a gumball machine,
and I swear to God,
it’s rigged.
It swallows quarters like a Manhattan bank,
chugs nickles like an IRS book man.
All I wanted was a gumball,
like Rocco.
A few more Roccos,
and it would be bye bye broken hearts.
Slimy, greasy gumball,
at the bottom of the barrel.
Someone else wanted him too,
bad.
I was the medium.
All I got was grindin’ bones.
Friction. The burn.
I had a cellmate,
he told me to go straight,
and I said, how ?
Rust and marigolds,
gravel and blue sky.
I sit on a bench,
in front of still water,
and remember.
Before gag rules,
before the mules,
before all that.
I had hair,
golden tufts
that buffeted softly,
in sweet breezes.
I had a smooth,
straight nose,
and all my teeth.
My fingers could feel
both hot and cold.
I was less a few bullets,
and plus a few pounds.
The air was free,
and that’s all I had,
but I played.
I danced with a pony’s head,
on a stick,
and made gun smoke
like the Lone Ranger.
Retroactive karma.
Kids ain’t innocent,
If you take the long view.
I grew.
I did a perfect three-point-turn,
and cooked a mean omelette
when I had the time and
the chickens were generous.
Old.
Now I smile with two missing front teeth,
waitin’ for the tooth fairy.
Waitin’ for socks from Santa.
I look down,
between my feet,
and see the ants.
Milling.
Slaving.
Dying.
It wasn’t an easy life,
after all,
and money bore false witness.
I spit,
and watch the ants drink.
Fuck gumballs.
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