Grieving

How do you grieve
someone you haven’t yet lost?
I’m broken
and each piece of me
doesn’t know how to carry on
in a world
I was told
was created by a God
whose plans though
seem so wrong

I cannot breathe
knowing one day
you could be gone
it’s a constant thought that
is rotting inside me

it’s anger
it’s sadness that
have turned my life
into an irreversible madness

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